6. December 2013 17:43
I came across this post on CNN and kept it open in my browser for 2 days before I read it. I can relate to being physically healthy confirmed by CMP, eating well, maintaining my weight and yet feeling physically ill to the point that anxiety became almost a daily event. Though I never considered myself a negative person, I found deep inside, I was sad or perhaps more accurately, I was mildly depressed. Both my parents passed away not long ago. The final months leading up to that day was filled with a subtle dread and anticipation they would soon be gone. In each case, I missed saying goodbye to them within mere minutes. I've been apart from my kids, I miss them, I felt stressed, fatigued and overwhelmed. Why?
It took almost 7-8 months to figure out what was the root cause of my illness. It wasn't denial. It was more like a search, turning over every stone looking for the answer. Finally, I had eliminated, tracked down and validated the cause. It was my words. I was telling myself I was tired, fatigued and overwhelmed. This gave the emotions/feelings more power. While healing didn't happen overnight, I began overwriting those thoughts with gratefulness, loving, healing thoughts. One day my sister passed me a link to TED. From there, I saw a video The upside of stress: Kelly McGonigal at TEDGlobal 2013. That short video was timely. It helped me begin my healing process. I began telling myself "stress is my friend" instead of tired, fatigued and overwhelmed. It helped me to gain power over my anxiety. The upside to this experience is that I learned so much more about health, stress and myself. I've made better choices as a result. My daily breakfast is oatmeal (optimal amount for reducing triglycerides), egg whites and one cup decaf coffee. For lunch and or dinner I have a hearty salad with nuts, fruits, cheese, avocados, bananas. I continue to eat salmon, chicken and lean meats. Overall, the biggest change is experiencing enhanced well being. "It is possible to think yourself well"